Hi everyone! Long time, no blog. Honestly, I have been so lazy with blogging, but busy at the same time as I am job hunting for a full-time position!
Today I am here to talk about skin imperfections and how I am currently dealing with them. In my case: acne. Let’s get down to it. I’m getting real here:
I have never had perfect skin—ever since I was a pre-teen, I knew I was going to have a rough time with acne just because of family history and other aspects of being a teen. I can honestly say I still remember my first pimple and how horrifying it was to walk around school, pre-makeup, knowing everyone was definitely looking at me. From that day on, my skin has had it’s ups and downs for sure, but even in the ‘ups’, I knew it was never going to last.
The ups and downs caused me (like anyone) to look up makeup that would work for my skin, along with skincare routines. However, it’s really hard to take advice from the internet especially, because everyone’s skin is unique and no two people have the same exact issues.
I cannot remember too many breakouts in high school that really got me down, but I can remember the ones in college. The first time I was really truly down about my skin was my fall semester sophomore year. I had these tiny bumps on my forehead that did not turn into anything, they were just there. I remember thinking, I wish these would just turn into whiteheads so I could do something about them (pop them, I know I shouldn’t but come on its just so satisfying), but they just were tiny and everywhere. I hated the way my face looked so during my winter break, I went to the dermatologist and got a prescribed skincare regimen. That worked for me for a long time and I recall when I realized I could stop being so strict with it because all of the acne had cleared (still no tiny forehead bumps to date!). Whew, I thought, that would definitely be my last bad breakout, I was, after-all, 20-years-old at the time—I thought for sure that was the end.
No, no, it was not the end. Junior year of college was smooth sailing in terms of my skin, besides the occasional breakout here and there. Now, come SENIOR YEAR of college and BAM, just like that I have a whole new host of skin issues. Since the start of winter, around my mouth and chin (and even some on my cheeks), I was breaking out with cystic acne that was coming from waaaay underneath the skin. I got so fed up with it that I went to the store and spent a whole ton of money on crap products that I thought would help me. Turns out, nothing did and I ended up wearing makeup every day senior year (this got tiring after a while.) Now that I am home from college, I went to the dermatologist to see what the deal was. Well, it’s those lovely hormones! It’s not that I don’t wash my face, or the fact that I eat dairy or wear too much makeup, it’s completely something I cannot control that that’s the most sickening part of it all. Either way, I got some topical treatment (Retinol, like Differin, only stronger) that I have been using and it seems to be clearing it up, slowly.
So what do I do about the appearance of my skin? Absolutely nothing. I have been going makeup free for most days and it’s absolutely liberating. I am 22-years-old with a chin full of huge pimples, so what? I cannot go each day piling on makeup that is doing NOTHING but bad things to my existing skin issues. Sure, when I go out occasionally on the weekend I will put it on for a couple hours, but when I come home, off it goes. I am religious about washing, moisturizing and treating my face at night and in the morning, I rinse with cold water. I am hoping the sun will help it too, since last summer I had flawless skin. But you know what, if my acne wants to take it’s time and run it’s course, so be it. I am done trying to get rid of it (other than taking care of my skin) and it is obviously here for a reason. Stress, is definitely contributing to it, but that is yet another thing I cannot help right now.
Something occurred this weekend, though, that made me think—hey, maybe I do have some control over this. I have been using the Maybelline FitMe foundation for the entirety of my senior year of college. I go makeup free for one week and apply the foundation when I went out this weekend and boom, within 8 hours of wearing it, I have three new under-the-skin, big old pimples just waiting to ruin my face. I can’t help but wonder, is the FitMe foundation not so fitting for ME? (Carrie B. voice) Maybe. So back to the no makeup, no problem way and see if that bad boy is really ruining my skin.
Well, that was MY skin story—does anyone have any similarities or suggestions? I look forward to keeping you informed on this journey, and updating as time goes on.
Thanks for letting me be REAL with you today!